Topic started by mk (@ dialn-async205.dial.net.nyu.edu) on Fri Feb 8 16:34:53 .
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As I sit down to write the present state of life, my thoughts wander far jumping abstractly to bits and pieces of what is so called “my life.” Tears fall slowly traveling the road so well known to me. Yet another time, I pen down my feelings to get rid of the frustration and the pent up emotions eventually leading to a depressed state of mind. Why me I scream, but don’t I hear the same question everywhere? People smile as they walk by, isn’t there something deep within them that is masking the forbidden tear from falling? Or am I such an eternal pessimist that I tend to see everything with a negative aspect to it.

I think about the grand scheme of life. Pain and sorrow is what flashes in front of me. How cruel can life be and is life something so beautiful worth living? People, places, situations, sorrow, happiness, oh lord it’s all the same act. I don’t really know myself what I’m trying to get at, confused, bewildered I search for signals, words, expressions, anything at all that will indicate to me I’m not alone in this continuous struggle to understand the complicated term, life.

Family and friends are again concepts that are so puzzling to me. Who do we call friends? People who don’t care less, in times of need? You called them best friends once upon a time, what happened to those lovely days? Or were those memories just pretence of the whole relationship. Family, an institution you can always fall back on. Should I claim that’s true or is the whole thing a rude joke. Scheming people who betray all the trust, always hiding behind an iron mask, what’s there to life I again wonder.

Another perspective, “Is anything more beautiful than life?” People walk past me ever so quickly, with a quick “Hi, how are you?” and disappear even more quickly with a brief smile. Wouldn’t many encounters like that, filled with smiling faces brighten my day up? I go to school, the happy ambience, bubbling with high spirited students, all set to conquer the world, lo, that sure does put an immediate smile on my face. The talent, skill, beauty, exhibited is enormous, something indescribable…

Friends, what would I do without them…your peers you can always count on, share your dreams with, your happiness and joy, and of course your life. The diverse people who you come across, in various walks of life, always not failing to amaze you with their concern, care, generosity, warmth and personalities.

When everything’s going wrong, it feels like its not all that bad really because of one solid value “family.” What did I do to have lady luck bless me with a family like mine? Supportive people who would kill for me, no matter what! Always there, right beside me if I need them. How could I ever repay them for all their love?

Both perspectives seem so different yet so alike. Which side am I on, or which side will I really take? Is it possible that humans can totally stick to one side of this argument or rather does a mix of both make more sense. I sat down to write something the least bit related to what I did, and ended up with something completely different. What is going on with me?! Isn’t that something everybody eventually finds out in the path of their lives, maybe it is taking me more time than usual, but I do know that I will soon tread on the path pretty soon…until then I will patiently enjoy playing the game of “life.”

Responses:

• From: ec (@ bryant.rz-berlin.mpg.de) on: Fri Feb 8 17:59:51
  
  Lovely piece. It is really hard to find out 'what is life'. This is the question which mankind is trying to figure out from the beginning.
  Sometimes things look like heavy boulders making us to feel so week and helpless. The next time, all look so beautiful that we end up laughing at our worries! Strange?!
  I think in the study of life, everyone is just a student, lifelong! Like a student doing some experiments and waiting for the results with eager, we do what we can and see how things get developed. Sometimes life takes unbelievable and unimaginable turns; appears more interesting than a thriller.
  -just my thoughts.
  
  
• From: Misguided Soul (@ mail.waldorf.edu) on: Sat Feb 9 01:01:40
  
  There are two ways to understand relationships: either qualitatively or quantitatively. For more info regarding the quantitative/qualititative dilemna of perception & consciousness, more specifically their relation to mathematical notions, please refer to my thread, "Is Rebirth Mathematically Possible?"
  
  http://www.forumhub.com/expr/22406.15.23.34.html
  
  
  
• From: mk (@ proxy.nyu.edu) on: Tue Feb 12 17:00:04
  
  Thanks very much for the responses folks. I really appreciate you taking the time to read it, and providing me with feedback. Thanks again.
  
  
• From: Misguided Soul (@ mail.waldorf.edu) on: Wed Feb 13 02:29:16
  
  hey wait,
  
  i'll write a much better response tomorrow.
  
  
• From: Misguided Soul (@ mail.waldorf.edu) on: Wed Feb 13 02:30:29
  
  or what i meant was later on today
  
  
• From: Misguided Soul (@ mail.waldorf.edu) on: Wed Feb 13 23:38:32
  
  "Tears fall slowly traveling the road so well known to me."
  
  Memories of bygone times, friends, places, moments we hold dear. Nothing in life is permanent, yet its a human weakness to cling to what we know has to change.
  
  "Yet another time... eventually leading to a depressed state of mind."
  
  Indeed, quite too often we lack words to express the deeper sentiments of our hearts. A fragile heart holds many a secret desire, so many longings and wants, which time alone will decipher.
  
  "Why me I scream, but I don't hear the same question everywhere?"
  
  The world is a cold, cruel, heartless place. In our sorrow and melancholy, we feel this to be even more so.
  
  "People smile as they walk by... forbidden tear from falling."
  
  We wish the world would share our sorrow, our joy, and sometimes, even our longings.
  
  "Or am I such an eternal pessimist... negative aspect to it?"
  
  Is there a right way to view the world? The fragility of human nature and perspective makes that more often than not, impossible. We deal with our circumstances on a day to day basis and hope for the best. We trust ourselves, and we hope in God.
  
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  This is very Buddhist in terms of philosophical attributes. Suffering is inevitable, pain is inevitable. Yet, Buddha stated that the reason lies in mans endless desire and want. More informally, we all wish for their to be an end to pain and suffering.
  
  "People, places, situations... oh lord, its all the same act."
  
  Sometimes it happens that we, in searching a multiplicity of emotions, are afraid of change, and so questioning the present becomes a way of denying that we do want change.
  
  We see the fragility of life (Sept. 11, for example) and ask how humanity, for all its richness, what it calls civilization, can at the same time be so empty. We question existence, in our helplessness, and search a cold world for answers, only to be swiftly rebuked.
  
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  One reason we form friendships is they serve as a means of guidance, a way of circumventing an unforseeable future. Friendships are also an answer to mortality; the fear of the unknown can be repressed by the here and now.
  
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  I will complete the analysis on Friday.
  
  
  
• From: Misguided Soul (@ mail.waldorf.edu) on: Fri Feb 15 22:31:09
  
  4th Paragraph:
  
  Its nice to know you're not alone.
  
  5th Paragraph:
  
  Testing fate is a human tendency, for better or worse.
  
  6th Paragraph:
  
  To live is to experience relativity.
  
  
  
• From: mk (@ proxy.nyu.edu) on: Sat Feb 16 16:47:02
  
  Misguided Soul: Thanks yet another time. Makes me want to write just to see how you critique my work!!!
  
  

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